It's coming so fast

I'm a bit wiped out from the crazy 2 1/2 days I have had at work, what a week and it's only Tuesday night! OK, enough about that... I forgot how crazy I went for Ashton's first Birthday!

I  have been working by day, prepping birthday goodies by night and shopping on my travels and on the weekends between event and play time to have everything ready. Let's hope this time, I actually remember to get all the decorations I make up before I get side tracked the day of !!!

I told myself I stressed out myself so much the first time to have everything perfect that I was not going to do that this time, and I think I didn't quite listen to myself but I keep telling myself DON'T worry it will be great. I'm no where near as stressed as I was the first time, well at least not yet. I just want it to be perfect for my beautiful little girl.

I'm super EXCITED about her veRY VERY FIRST BIRTHDAY!!!

So I've gotten a little emotional the past few weeks when I really think about it, it's happy tears but it makes me want to cry because I cant even believe she is going to be 1. My BABY will be all grown up to a toddler. My little peanut has been my sweet little petite baby this whole year and I think it's just so hard to know that I wont ever get to do this again with a baby and now I will get to enjoy ever other coming of age, as each one I think is the BEST one and that's because they will all be.

  Jonathan, Big Brother Ashton and I are so lucky to have the sweetest loving-est love bug in the world.  Were so lucky to be here, with everyone being happy, healthy  and continuing our Family journey. To have this little girl in our lives is the most amazing feeling everyday. She is so sweet, a ray of light, and perfect in every way. It's truly been an amazing experience this year with having both of them but even more watching the bond Ashton and Kaleia have between each other is something I don't even have words to explain. Kaleia looks for ashton's every move he makes and Ashton watches for her every where he is. It's so cute in the morning Ashton pretty much is up any where between 15-30 minutes before Kaleia every morning and as soon as he hears her on the monitor he says' Mommy or Daddy depending on who's home - my sissie is a wake lets go get her now. He is so concerned if he does not know where she is. He watches for her and will bring her toys and play with her but most recently he wants to rough house with her, sometimes it's just him tickling her and she laugh's so hard and thinks it 's the funnest thing in the world and other times she laughs then try's to wiggle from the side and craw away but sometimes we have to remind Ashton NO Sissie is fragile and you have to be really careful with her.

Kaleia is trying so hard to walk by her first birthday but one of the funnest things is she waits for Ashton to go into the other room or while he's taking his nape she looks around and check where he is, then pulls her little self up and steps her foot out and then holds and balances, sticks her arms out to balance and leans sometimes she steps again or she does then reaches for the furniture again and walks it all around. Keep you posted on her walking moves

Jonathan and I were just talking the other night I cant believe a year ago I was a week away from having our perfect baby girl and Ashton no longer being the only baby... (or as he corrects me : mommy I'm a kid, i'm a big kid)

* oh on a side note before I let you all go tonight, Sunday morning I was writing something in Ashton's baby book and we were playing in his room. 

Ashton- leans over to me and says that's the hospital mommy (pointing to a picture)

mommy-  yes that's right ashton.

Ashton- Are we going to the hospital to get new baby, like sissie or mommy... Landon's baby!!!

mommy-  we already had sissie almost a year ago she is not as small as landons baby anymore.

ashton- OH,  no more mommy??? (his face was priceless, like he was so confused)

In that moment I had flash backs of both trips to the hospital and I'm so fortitude to have the most sweetest, funniest and loving kiddos in the world. We are truly blessed in more ways then ONE!!!

When I told Jonathan, he laughed...and smiled... I said NO more Bubba 

ONE BIG EXCITING PIECE OF NEWS~ Kaleia said MOMMY yesterday for the first time. YEAH!!! :)

That's it for now.... Thanks for all the RSVP's we cant wait to see our family & friends a week from this Saturday.