Memorial Day 2011

Today is a day to give thanks,To all the service men and women out there who risk there lives and leave there family's, Behind while they fight for our country.  Thank you to each and everyone of you who have served or who are currently serving our country.

To my dearest brother we love you and think about you daily.  We know you are out there helping and saving people and doing what you love.  Take care of your self and we can't wait for you to get leave to come home and meet your new beautiful niece.  She can't wait to meet her uncle.  Ashton is getting so big and looks at your picture all the time and can't wait to play with his uncle again. Enjoy today and remember were always with you and just a letter or phone call away..  Miss you tons little brother.

Happy Memorial Day!!!

5 Year's today...

As I know we have Reflected back a few times over the past 2 years on my blog about jonathan and I when we hit that 12 years of happiness and being together and that day will always mean a thousand words to us. But this Beautiful Day on the 27th of May 2006 we got to stand up in-front of all of our Family and Friends and share with everyone just how much we love and care about each other for the rest of our lives. That day means so much to us. So on this BEAUTIFUL SAN DIEGO day, I will always remember walking down that ale and seeing the man of my dreams and my best friend standing there waiting for me. It was an unforgettable day...

So today I'm thankful to have my bubba and now our little pumpkin Ashton who is a BIG BROTHER and our very new addition Kaleia who is 17 days old. They have helped us create such a loving beautiful family, I don't know what I could ever do without them.



Thank you baby for being there in thick and thin. You have always been my ROCK when things are rough and I cant see a day that goes by the I could ever not have you right by my side. I know today wont be about just us with just having Kaleia but it will be a great kick off day to OUr NEW FAMILY of FOUR. I know we will get to go do something soon and celebrate these past 5 years together soon. I just want you to know I love you always and forever... And thank you for our 2 beautiful children



Each Year I Fall In Love Again With You

When I first met you all those years ago,
I fell in love so fast, I knew right then,
You were the one and only one for me;
I'd never have to look for love again.

Each anniversary finds us happier;
You are my light--my moon, my star, my sun.
You show me what real love is all about,
You fill my life with pleasure, joy and fun.

As time goes by, our love grows stronger still.
You're the most amazing man.
I prize our anniversaries because
Each year I fall in love again with you.

HAPPY 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY !!!

20 month old son and a 14 day old daughter

Hard to believe my son as of Sunday is now 20 months old and I'm already thinking about his second birthday that will be here before I know it and i have a 14 day old daughter as of today. WOW 14 day's old already and she is changing as the hours go by. I haven't had a chance to officially get on the computer and send or post anything but Jonathan has been all over it for the both of us. So when i have a second i pull up my blog on my phone and type away and save it so you will see like 4 or 5 posting all hit from her birth tell today If i get a chance to post them. I'm trying to keep up but with two baby's under two and learning all the fabulous things that makes my son go crazy right about the time I need to start feeding and changing diapers about every hour or 2. I have my hands full not to mention I take like 5 to 10 minutes longer to get anything done because I have to be so careful as I go up and down or picking something up or just about anything because I'm in pain still. I do believe it seems like I'm healing faster then last time but I need to with the running around i need to be doing with Ashton.

So let me sum up the past few days...

Saturday we had a meet and greet KALEIA with Family and friends. It was Great to see everyone and thank you to everyone who came, We loved having you all get to meet Kaleia and spend time with her. Thank you also for the goodies and the big brother gifts for Aj as much as he did. WE LOVED THEM !!! Thank you for making him feel extra special along with the beautiful goodies and outfits for her.
*A huge THANK YOU to my dear friend AMY for making all the cake pops, cupcakes in a jar and the big brother beach chair Ashton just loves to pieces. Also for the beautiful diaper caddy you made and the book. THANK YOU SO MUCH MY FRIEND, XOXOX



Ashton kissed Mickey's daughter...





Sunday we vegged and had family time along with picking up our new jogging double stroller. Let me tell you I should have gone into the baby industry as there is a killing to make in baby stuff no matter how you cut it. Those strollers are so much money. The average Good, safe and best rated double strollers go for 350-600. That's a car payment or a really great hand bag :) Well those days are over for now .... Ha ha!!! I do have to say I'm bummed to have my Bubba go back to work tomorrow as it will be my first day all by my self. Not that i cant handle it but it makes it a bit hard when i cant lift Aj from the ground and get up really fast or move like normal but I'm strong I know I can do this. So pray for me tomorrow as it sure will be an experience in itself. I'll let you know if i make it through the day.

Monday - WOW what a day, well I guess i haven't said that Kaleia is a night OWL and starts her mornings about 12AM or 1AM she is bright eyed and ready to start the day.Sunday night was a long night and Monday made for a really long day. Jonathan has been a huge help and as i would go down to take a nap at 6am, we would already have AJ calling us that he is up ready to start his day. So i do night duty because jons got to go back to work and he cant do what i have to do anyhow all night with feeding her unless i have enough pumped. So Kaleia and i go down for a 2 hour cat nap and Jon doing mickey Mouse Club house with Aj and breakfast and then i get up and Jonathan went to work and I took it from there. My biggest challenge was in the later part of the afternoon when Kaleia decided to be up (witch was nice thinking she would maybe sleep some Monday night, yeah didn't happen) but that and Ashton wanting to play like we were until I had to go pump. Well if someone has advice for me how to keep a 20 month old entertained for 25 minutes while I pump, 2 hours before bed time. i would love to know. Because let me tell you that was the hardest thing i had to do all day. Any other time i had to do it, piece of cake but that late in the day Aj does not do well entertaining himself for that long when he's getting tired.

Have a good night more to come when I have a minute

Our first full Offical day home with Kaleia

As Jonathan and I couldn't put this in words any differently. OUR Official first day down with the whole Mercado family being home. It went really well, Natalie came to visit with Landon Racer and everyone had a good time, I'm up and moving around pretty well for just going through what i did and Kaleia is a darling little girl. Ashton is doing well, yesterday and today he was being super hyper and showing off alot, he knows he's not the baby anymore and its going to take a little adjustment on everyone's part to make sure both children feel like they are number 1. It wont be easy but I think we can handle it, towards the end of the day we all had a big hugging session to help him realize that we love him just as much and he isn't 2nd best. After that he starting settling into his big brother role, he even held Kaleia for a few minutes and had a huge smile on his face, after that we couldn't keep him away from her, it was the best. Day 2 and the next few weeks are sure going to be a big adjustment for all of us but I know we will find a system that will work for all of us.

One thing I have to add is that it just about broke my heart tonight when we went to put Ashton to sleep because i cant do my full normal routine with him at bed time because i cant lift him up and it kills me. I so badly wanted to hold him all to myself and sing him his song and tell him our little good night blessing but it turned out to be a family bed time with Aj witch is not a bad thing but he just doesn't understand why I cant lift him up right now and that's what breaks my heart. I know it will get better in the next couple of weeks. But we did lot's of hugging and kissing good night from daddy's hands and from the floor since I cant pick him up right now. That's it for now. Have a great night everyone, will see how it will go with Kaleia tonight...

Coming Home with Kaleia

Our Little Princess was so small, her clothes were still big on her and Ashton and I had bought just one preemie outfit for her to wear home just in case she was small like AJ was. And surprise, surprise she was way smaller then AJ and is still only wearing cute little preemie clothes and diapers... :) The outfit's look so big on her still and I keep drying and shrinking them but they are going to get to short but her little body and legs are so skinny.

Not sure how much of her outfit you can see but it says " LITTLE SISTER" from her Big brother....

Kaleia Rose Mercado - is now here

Tuesday May 10th,2011 - arrived at 11:26am, 5 pounds 12 ounces, 18 inches long

from your daddy - kaleia rose...

* baby girl... what we were thinking and saying the night before you came *

In a few hours we will be welcoming a 2nd life we've create into this world. I cannot express how excited I am to see her little face and fall in love all over again. The first time with Ashton I knew even before he was born how much I loved him, how much of my life he meant to me and now how much that love has grown beyond any of my wildest dreams and now we get to do it again. Its hard to believe I can love something else just the same but that's the beauty of love, its plentiful, its everlasting and your heart can never run out no matter how many people receive its love.

We love you baby girl and cant wait to see you!!!!!

40 weeks and 3 days...

Welcome to the middle of the night... I cant sleep and I got lots done tonight for work and I'm officially pretty much done as of now. WOW, hard to believe, because I never thought I was going to make it all the way through my Monday but I did it again. GO ME!!!

I went to the hospital this evening and they did a ton of blood work and I didn't know if they were going to keep me or let me go home but they let me go home. She has been pushing down really hard all day and tonight the pain is getting worse but not enough to head down there yet. So will take it, as it comes. She is kicking like crazy right now to her own little musical beat...

Happy Mother's Day- inspirational

I had to share this with all of you... My partner at work shared this beautiful poem with me. She lost both of her parents about 4 years ago and someone very special gave this to her. Enjoy it, weather your a mom yourself or a son or daughter to a FABULOUS mom out there. I hope you like it as much as I did. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

MOM- Because of you

Because 0f you I believe in myself
Long before I was a success, my mother made
me feel like I could be one.

Because of you I feel safe
She made me a security blanket
when I was born. That faded
green blanket lasted just as long
enough for me to realize that the
security part came from her

Because of you I feel Inspired
When she though I wasn't looking,
I saw her hang up my first painting
On the refrigerator and I wanted
to paint another one

Because of you I see what really counts
A mother's heart is a child's schoolroom

Because of you,
I feel boundless

What did I learn at
my mother's knee?
these four words:
She believed in me

Because of you the world is full of wonders
I doesn't matter how old
I get, whenever I see anything
new or splendid, I want to call
"Mom, come and look"

Because of you I still believe in miracles
It was easy to confuse my
mother with my guardian angel

Because of you I've always had a safe harbor
When things got tough
I could always run to her
Years later, I still can

Because of you I understand a labor of love
No one knows of the work it
takes to keep a home together,
Nobody knows of the steps it takes. Nobody knows but mother

Because of you, I find beauty in everything
Mom would say, "See if you notice the rose in the vase instead
of the dust on the table."

Because of you I dream bigger
"Be everything you can be,"
she would say, be anything but mediocre."

Because of you
I know there's always a way
Whenever we were down to
nothing, she found a way to
make something out of nothing

Because of you I have memories
to last a lifetime
Of all the gifts she gave us
The greatest of these were the memories

Because of you I am me
Mom, you have been my light
my friend, my teacher-then and now-
and more than that, my inspiration



HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!

My final doctor's appt.

Today was my doctor's appt. and I'm writing this so that means Dr. Veron didn't keep me there. She did her check, baby girl is good, great heart beat, she is down and ready but you know how that goes.. So was Ashton and then he had his own agenda when it came time for him to come.I'm dilated but she didn't want to go there and see how many centimeters because she said it could put me into labor at this point ( right now...) Can you say OUCH!!! no thank you, all just continue to wait it out! I know when she's ready - all know it, I don't need to rush it, as it will happen soon... We'll just let nature take its course or we will soon meet our beautiful baby girl Tuesday sometime :) Crazy to believe 9 months are over and I will see her in 4 days or sooner.

Thanks and have a good night. I will keep you posted.

COUNT DOWN...

Just waiting for our little princess to arrive. I have my last big appointment on Friday. So the QUESTION of the week has been are you ready for her??? And I have to say were as ready as were going to be.

I'm just being a happy camper and looking like I have a watermelon or basketball in my tummy Jonathan told me yesterday. If I need to be pregnant another week and 1 days then that's what all do...that's fine, but I have this feeling I'm just going to make it tell Tues and she will be ready. She seems pretty happy and healthy in there now with a great heart beat, so why mess that up, but she cont. to create contractions and they keep coming then they stop for a few hours and start again... She continues to drop as I can see it each day now. I'm okay with that too. My official due date is the 13th, if she's not here by then will see what Dr. Veron has to say. I have a pretty good feeling she'll be here before then like maybe Tues because that's what were kinda planning for unless I get a surprise the end of this week or over Mother's day weekend. We'll just wait and see. So have a good night... All keep you posted tomorrow or the next day.

10 days to go...

Hard to believe the time just flu by...
WELL...I will be hitting my last big week of work, and between Ashton keeping me running and Kaleia on her own time schedule, this will be one crazy last big week for me before I have two babies to give undivided attention too...Not to worry I promised myself that I would never let AJ feel like he's not number one and Kaleia be our little princess. So if anyone has any amazing words of wisdom for me with two babies under two, iI'll have in 10 days, I would love to hear it. (Please share)

I had an appointment Friday and they told me I'm now dilated to 2, like I was with AJ the first time around but a week sooner with him... Even though she looks like she has dropped a lot her little booty and feet are now really pushing on my rib cage (OUCH!!!) but she is in the correct direction. So the doctor says more then likely she thinks all have our little bundle of joy by Tuesday of next week, but will see. She's in the correct position and I've had some contractions this week again but nothing to go to the hospital about yet. I wasn't sure for a minute their if I should have or not and I didn't. It was for the best. I am happy I made it threw this past week because it was crazy with work and I had so much to do before I leave, so tomorrow will be me wrapping up all loss ends before next week... My last day will be next Monday, if I make it to that.

Dr V also is convinced that we should be able to go in on the 10th and be good to go but if she decides on coming sooner then that's what will happen. She reminded us that not all babies are ready once they "drop" before birth, some people don't hit major pain or water breaking until labor is fully on at the hospital. She gave us the close run down to what i need to watch for this time verses last time since I will be having to have another C-section because of AJ's emergency one last time. I know she's doing well and her heart beat is at 140-145 and she's safe in there with no problems which makes me feel good knowing that. I couldn't ask for a better doctor, she has been so great and totally gets it plus it helps that she been there as well and is great at what she does. So we will be waiting just a little longer for our little Kaleia to arrive. We wont be heading anywhere far this coming weekend for mother's day, just in case. I'm happy that all is ok and there is nothing to worry about...No matter the final outcome, weather she comes early or they go in on the 10th and she's here will have to wait and see. What ever will make a safe delivery at this point is OK with me as long as no one and nothing is in harms way...I will be so happy to have her meet her sweet BIG Brother for the first time. One exciting piece of news is from my APPT. was I'm so happy to say, I only gained 12 pounds with this little girl... YEAH!!! I was so happy when doctor Veron and I were going through that on on chart. :)

So that's it for now, it's Sunday night and I need to try to sleep a bit before my big last week of work... WOW how weird is that, to say!!!

PS- THANKS BABE.... For my birthday present I just finally used today. I had a great time this morning at the SPA getting the maternity massage... I love it. Great way to start out my day. xoxox

Then getting to spend the rest of my beautiful day with my two favorite boys out side in the sun... He just loves his new ship water toy.