Where has the time gone!!! (2 months already)

It's hard to believe that Ashton will be two months old tomorrow. It seems like only yesterday we were in the hospital with him,
so excited to be able to take him the end of that week when we got released. So much has happened and gone on since he has been born and I cant even began to think what life would be like with out him. Jonathan and I are so blessed to have a happy and healthy baby boy. He is the light in are life and the shining star of a miracle we have been given.This little family that Jonathan and I have created is so much more than I ever thought it could be. He has changed everything...

I cant even began to tell you how blessed I am to be a mother. Never did I think I would be ok with not being able to take a shower tell when ever it works into the day. Especially when I use to being showered and ready to walk out the door at 4am. Oh how things have changed... I never know how our day will unfold, it could be by 7am, we feed again and then I lay him back down for a while and at 9 we play on mommy's bed listen to baby enstin and watch the trees blow out side of mommy's room, as that always seems to catch his eyes or we go straight to tummy time and have fun. But I love the mornings where I curl him up in bed with me and I stand him up on me and we look at each other and I smile and then he will follow my lead. I love how he tries to laugh, I know that's what he's doing. Who would of thought I would be ok dealing with a messy house on some days, and no being able to get to it to late that night or early the next morning. To have our laundry not the baby's and bills stack up tell I can get to them. All the joys of being a mom and learning how to work it all in with a cute little guy that steals your heart away at every moment.


Sometimes I look at him and think WOW, how did that happen.
I mean, I know how but it's hard to believe I was the one who helped this little guy grow inside of me all those months. It was such a joy to have this little guy in my tummy and feel him grow with me and kick me so often and let me know I'm still here. He was so active in my tummy and he is just as active now. I would sit and think about him on all my flights to different places, about what he would look like, how big he would be, what his little finger and toes would be like and how it would be to have him here, AND never in a million years did I expect it to be like this. I love him to pieces and he has made our little family so happy and complete. He is truly our Christmas miracle that came to us just in time to share this years holidays with us.

I'm so great full to have a happy and healthy little boy, with all 10 fingers and toes. No major problems and a little pumpkin that is so strong already, I cant even believe it. He surprises me everyday. I love that I got to spend all this time with him to bond and share all his first moments in his first 2 months with out ever missing a beat. His first bath, first smile, laughing at daddy and I and rolling over only when he does tummy time, how did this all happen right in front of my eyes... Standing up on us as we hold his hand's or under his arms. We have gone through so much in such a short time...

I cant believe that on 10.29.09 I had to pack up all his preemie clothes and we graduated to newborn clothes and diapers. Now he's in full swing of newborns and we have worn all his new clothes but the ones that are too big for him still. He has had a new outfit everyday until it stared to get real cold then we bought more and all footed or long out fits for the change in weather. I don't know how long he will last in Newborns because he is tiny in body but so long. At his 1 month check up he was 21.5 inches long and now he is well over 22 inches long. Will see on Monday when we go to his 2 month check up. It's so sad that he's not so little any more but I love that he is growing and is so attentive to all around him now. It's 2 weeks from today that I return back to work and a part of me is happy because there is so much going on with holiday and my team but a major part of me is so sad that I will have to leave this little guy everyday. I know I will just be crushed. But I do have to say my wonderful hubby will be home now for the next 6 weeks to take care of our little bundle of joy so it's not like he will be in a whole new situation. It will be daddy's time to bond with AJ.

I love Ashton unconditionally forever and ever!!! Your mommy's pride and Joy!!!